Little girls, little girls

I was preparing to run a marathon, nursing a baby and just barely getting time with my husband after a very long campaign year. My little Lyla was only 8 months old. I was 90% sure I was finished having babies and told everyone three was the magic number. And then....I got pregnant. I found out in August.  Not  my plan!!! A big surprise. I was deflated, overwhelmed and disappointed. At times I even felt angry. I know I should not confess these feelings but that's how I felt.  Luckily my husband and girls were very excited. My family was excited. Kelle and Sidney were excited. So I"m grateful for them and their support. Of course I had a few family members act like complete jerks and not hold back their opinions on big families but they can kiss my grits!!!  It is what it is. As much as I was disappointed I felt this must be Gods plan for me and I needed to get on board with it. Its December, I am now 20 weeks pregnant and I had my ultrasound yesterday. I finally feel a bit of relief and excitement. It appears to be a healthy baby girl! I love little girls. I know she will bring more joy to our family. I had to drop out of the marathon and quit nursing Lyla. We have had to ignore comments of those who don't agree with our pregnancy.  I have been tired but it will get better and be worth it.  I can't wait to meet her!!! Lyla will have her own best friend like Lauren and Lindsay have in each other. I can keep my upstairs pink!!!! Life is good.


PS: It was the St George Marathon I dropped out of. I still ran my half in Bryce Canyon, loved it and beat my best time!!!!